Plant Yourself First
Updated: Apr 30, 2019
You probably won't believe me when I tell you that I haven't always been this effervescent, (mostly) extroverted human. In fact, I was pretty much the opposite around most humans... for a while.
I spent a lot of time, too much time, living for others' approval in the hopes that their acceptance would fulfill me, and make me feel comfortable to be me. I didn't let myself shine, and instead waited for others to shine on me. As a kid, teenager and even young(er) adult, what I wanted most was to be wanted (or at least noticed), and it broke my spirit for far too long.
As a more grown woman, I can see how I lived externally, wishing for purpose to come upon me, waiting for people to give me a reason to love me. After years of rejection and lost friendships, I came to realize that the only person's approval I needed was my own.
I needed to see myself, be myself, cherish myself and then manifest the relationships I deserved: caring, supportive, kind, real people. The type that make you laugh, have your back and want only what's best for you.
Learning to nurture a profound love for myself has allowed me to plant seeds and watch them spring up through beautiful friendships and meaningful moments.
I no longer wait for things to happen around me. I make them happen. I tell my friends how much I care for them. I tell my friends how incredible they are. I tell my friends how much I believe in them. I don't need to hear it back. Now, I am so full of light that it makes me happier to share it with the special people in my life than to receive it.
I wish the same for you.